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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 02:42

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

All the time i was locked up.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

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I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Can you name an example of bad parenting?

Especially a lifetime of it.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

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I never cut or harmed myself..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Put me off passion for life!!

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Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But it wasn’t much.

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We all went to grammer schools

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

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I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

He knew the spot.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

One cannot live in the past .

So, i spoilt her more .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He resisted the act ,that day.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I don,t even have a pension.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I have no regrets .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But ive been too sick for many years..

She married twice! .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I was scared of men, in general

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

So whats the point in blame.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I think the readers, may guess!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She found it foreign!.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I was seconnd youngest,

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Would this be the day?

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I was very sick at this time too.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My life is so biszare .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I said to her

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Comes on , in middle age.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Im still living with it.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I will be 64.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I write beautiful poetry .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Who then, do I blame.?

My family never makes their pension either.

I was 9 years of age.

But, we were locked up after school.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I waited trembling.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Ive learnt so much.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I could never make a relationship work though!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She loved him until the end.

And i lived it daily.

It was going to be , some day.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

As i do to all so called friends.?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Why did i forgive my father ?

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

What did i know ?

Was to survive, this bastard.

When she asked me how she looked .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

She wouldn,t have been !

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

She was in good health!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

We were not on the streets..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

This is soul school!.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .